When you’re all alone

Updated: Jun 1, 2019




When you’re all alone

No one picks up the phone

And your heart is beating


You can’t stop thinking

What would have happened

If I hadn’t left him


You’re wondering will I still be alive

Tomorrow if this guy causes my parent’s sorrow

And takes me away with his blade shining

Bringing up knives candidly

Mentioning women’s futility subtly

And just keeping it chill between nervous laughter


What happens when you let your guard down

You stare at the ground

Wondering what will happen to you

Hoping that it could only be true

But there is only falsity in each action

He defends and deflects any question

You cannot pretend to even protest

As he is writing your blood on his chest


Provoking, never motioning, moving cards

As if you could see them

Senses broken

Which sense would you go without

He keeps defiling them

Wondering if he is beguiling them

Where am I in this mental mind fuck

Where am I in this mental mind fuck

I just don’t understand what is happening

He’s there across from me

Not mentioning anything

No substance

No depth

No emotions from his chest

An empty cavity


Is this a mental disorder

Or is he sheerly a sociopath

I’ll never know

As I hope he never crosses my path

Breathe out

Realize

You are safe again

Behind a locked door

Two dogs hugging your chest


This my friends

Is the life of a woman

Unwound

Unsafe

Unfound

Unavailable

Unexpected

Unsure

Unlike

Undone.

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